Amanda was a bit wary about leaving the house and Thomas, worried that he might get scared if he up and she wasn’t around, so she will have to trust he wouldn’t and will have a deep and heavy sleep as he could get sometimes, and mutely let James guide her to wherever he wanted to go. What surprised her about the place he led her to wasn’t how peaceful and beautiful it was, but the fact that for a few moments she stood there and thought how easy it will be to just jump and end it all.
But she couldn’t do that, it was the coward way out and she wasn’t a person that will do something like that. “I’m really…sorry that I couldn’t be here when that happened, you know that I would have if I had been able to do so, I would have fought to get here if I had known.”
And wasn’t that what she had been doing all this time, she bowed to her husband in certain things and yet fought him so much in others, he still hadn’t completely broken her and she knew, oh she knew that he hated and despised that. She took a deep breath and shook her head.
“You don’t need to apologize, it wasn’t your fault and I was more than aware to what I was agreeing to.” She had walked into this with her eyes wide open, it was Thomas what had made the situation even more complicated. “What’s done is done and I need to accept my life as it is.”
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Date: 2014-08-08 07:11 pm (UTC)But she couldn’t do that, it was the coward way out and she wasn’t a person that will do something like that. “I’m really…sorry that I couldn’t be here when that happened, you know that I would have if I had been able to do so, I would have fought to get here if I had known.”
And wasn’t that what she had been doing all this time, she bowed to her husband in certain things and yet fought him so much in others, he still hadn’t completely broken her and she knew, oh she knew that he hated and despised that. She took a deep breath and shook her head.
“You don’t need to apologize, it wasn’t your fault and I was more than aware to what I was agreeing to.” She had walked into this with her eyes wide open, it was Thomas what had made the situation even more complicated. “What’s done is done and I need to accept my life as it is.”